Life is shocking.

Hi dan assalamualaikum :)


                    Semalam aku dan keluarga aku pergi KKB . Nak jumpa saudara jauh sambil-sambil tu nak tengok tempat PLKN aku . So, dalam masa sejam lebih dah sampai . Borak-borak dengan family semua.  Happy je rase :) Ye lah agak lama tidak bersua. Then,dah habis berchit-chat,kena balik Subang.


              Dalam perjalanan pulang, dekat pukul 9 kot. Ayah kata nak isi minyak . Aku pun turun serbu Kedai petrol station tuu cari makanan untuk alas perut. Sampai je aku kat kaunter nak bayar, aku terserempak dengan seorang wanita ni. Dia adalah ibu kepada kwn aku. Aku pun salam then borak sekejap. Dia sudah beredar. Aku pun bagi barang kat ibu aku. Meluru masuk washroom sebab nak buat business lah. *paham-paham la ye. Belum sempat aku melangkah masuk, aku tersentap buat seketika. Aku memandang dia, dia pun memandang aku. Muka dia sangat gembira. Aku pun. Dia segera menghulurkan tangan lalu memeluk aku. Aku pun ikut je . Aku bagai tak percaya. Kita orang pun borak jap. Pastu, dia dah nak bertolak. Dalam kereta nak balik, asyik terbayang-bayang incident tadi. Aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan bersyukur kerana Allah dapat memakbulkan doa aku :) Terima kasih byk2  Ya Allah. :) 


P/S: Do not worry, i'll never forget you :) 

A Thousand Years

A thousand years-Christina Perri 




Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything 
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, 
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-perri-lyrics/a-thousand-years-lyrics.html ]
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a 
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought 
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more


Im crazy of this song actually. 

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Official Music Video)

Future

Hi dan assalamualaikum :)
                                        Last 18 December 2011 i went to Midvalley Megamall as they did an exibittion about Education Fair. So, I had a trip there all by myself . There were many Colleges and Foundations programs . So, i go through one by one. Ask them to explain which course you are interested . Alhamdulilah, im quite satisfied actually because all my questions is answered. So, I felt a "bit" relieved . I lernt a lot u know. They keep asking your Trial result, what you want to be, what course you would like to take and bla bla bla. I was like damn scared. Scared thinking about future. Many question actually meddling on my brain . "Can I be what I wished and want to be? " , "Can I be a successfull people one day?"  Takut weyh. Takut gila. Its like totally a new world. Freaking new world. Very very different from school life where you wake up at 6 something or even 7 to go school, come back form school ,eat, sleep or watch TV , Go tuition ,eat again ,online then sleep again. Waaa. Itulah manfaatnya being a school student. Hidup macam raja.

  I want to be a pharmacist sebab I like to handle chemical things and I want to find out a medicine that cure people without any side effects and free of steroids. (Yeye je aku nie). Most importantly,I love chemistry so much. Tapi there is  also a back up plan which i have made incase I changed my mind. Because tak semua orang dapat apa yang mereka nak . Kadang-kadang you dont have choice at all but to just accept which course you get. So, just getting preapared la.Hmmph, whatever is it i hope that everyone can excel in what ever they are dream and wanted to be. If you have desire in it and you show some effort , believe me , you'll sure get it.  :)

Game is Over

 To you,

              I keep on wondering why you always write on ur post instead of come and meet me?Why not even once you come and talk to me? Garang sangat ke aku nie?  I might look pissed off but  doesnt mean i will run away from you right. Yes, I did once when the time is gonna over. You know why? Because after months then you look out for me. Its too too late my dear. Too late for you to realise. You are looking forward to me just before exam. Great :) 

 Earlier before this things happens, I can read that you are gonna do this thing. Just like back in form 3.I cant accept it ok ! I cant tolerate with this things. Exam is coming and you are messing my mind so terribly. I cant think. Thats why I ran. You are looking for a very last minute moment. Sorry, i dont cry  anymore.  

  Before this, for months you have wasted the times . That times, not even a day you come to me. You are just doing your business because you take it for granted that I will search for you one day. But you're wrong. Im not that stupid as those days that even not my mistakes i have to apologise. Im not that stupid as those days that I think FS are everything. Im not that stupid as those days which you can make use of me. That why people keep on saying, when people do good, nobody sees, but when people did a mistake, they blame it over and over. Its so suits me. I do miss you only but tak de rezeki nak buat mcm mana.  

            You know what? I had a terrible moments this year. I learn a lot from this story. In a group there is girl A,B,C,D and E . They all are same school. One day, E have to move to another school and she changed a lot after she have changed to other school. Yet, A,B,C and D did not forget E and they always keep in touch. One day , Girl A complained to her a girl which is her buddy " E has changed a lot compared to last time but I still love her and contact her no matter what " .Then, this girl replied "Good, at least You keep in touch and remembered her :) " and smiled :) .

  You must have wanted to question me why cant I just forgive you? Simple. Last time, Im an idiot who apologise to everyone even though im not wrong. Now, after what you did you want me to forgive. Its not that hard actually. Even I've tried many times. Its just that the hurting feeling keeps appearing when i try to talk to you.  Sebelum kau nak menuding jari,Tepuk dada tanya selera lah kawan.Kau cakap aku macam2. Aku tau. Kau tak pernah tanya aku lalu kau buat semua konklusi kau sendiri. Kau hanya pandai berkarya dan minta simpati. Tetapi maaf aku tak pandai berbuat demikian. Banyak yang masih aku simpan dan aku lebih rela mendiamkan diri seperti ini. Cukuplah apa yang sudah terjadi. Kau cakap senang . Memang senang. Sangat tersangat senang. Tapi aku akan doakan kau takkan rasa apa yang aku pernah rasa . Sumpah sakit. 

  Aku tau kau cukup bahagia dengan dunia kau. Dan sejujurnya begitu juga dengan aku. Cuma kadang-kadang teringat jugak pasal hal ni. Tak apa. Aku taulah macam mana nak handle sekiranya benda ini terjadi lagi pada masa depan aku.Pengalaman benyak mengajar aku sebenarnya. Bagus lah, kau pun sudah bangun dari kesilapan kau.  Aku tau kau ada kwn yang lain untuk bantu kau dan kau boleh survive kalau tak ada aku pun. Apa-apa yang sudah terjadi nescaya telah membuka mata semua. Moral of the story, belajarlah menghargai kawan walau sekecik mana pun dia pernah menolong kita. Biarlah Allah menjadi saksi dan menentukan segalanya. Terima kasih untuk jadi sahabat aku selama ni . Im willing to be you friend no matter what its just that not like those days :) Goodbye.